I have come to the slow realization that my personal care has devolved into slobbery. I believe it all started when I had kids and was too tired to think about clothes, so I just wore the same yoga pants day after day. This condition was aggravated by moving into the RV. I have fully embraced the “trailer life” and now regard any personal care routine (including getting dressed) as too cumbersome. I’d rather sit in my hammock and read.
Of course, I have felt little hints that I had taken my relaxed attitude too far (like the time I showed up to bible study in my husband’s sweatpants and a three-day stink), but it wasn’t until my Grandma said something that I really got the message. After all, I’m living the RV life. And no one should care what I look like anyway! What’s on the inside matters most, right?
At first, I didn’t want to change. I didn’t really see the point. I thought people should accept me for who I am and looking sloppy endears me to more “average” people than looking fine and polished. For example, we go to a church where people dress in their Sunday best. My family typically goes in whatever is clean. I hear visitors comment regularly about how dressy our church is, so I feel like we bring some normalcy and approachability to the group.
However, I was recently convicted (thanks, Grandma) by the idea that God deserves our very best. Sunday is the Lord’s Day and should have our highest honor and attention. What is my sloppy appearance saying about my heart? I fear that it’s saying, “I don’t care that much. My comfort is more important than my worship.”
As I thought more about this, I realized there are so many layers within my decision to dress sloppily: Laziness, comfort, deflection, rebellion… I could go on and on. None of my reasons, however, matched up with my faith and who I really want to be… like Christ.
So…. I am entering a self-imposed 30-day challenge to get dressed every morning in an actual outfit (not pajamas or workout clothes). That’s it! I know it sounds simple, but it’s just the habit I need right now. I would love your encouragement too, as this is hard for me. Thanks, friends!